The photograph captures the image of a performance intended to be a photographic piece, where the topic of female alcoholism is discussed. I have chosen this topic because on an artistic level I am interested in issues related to identity and gender, as well as certain socioculturally controversial manifestations, approached from a perspective of psychological and emotional inquiry.

This is a work that highlights an almost invisible situation experienced by 31% of women in Spain. The typology of this addiction presents a woman between 14 and 34 years old, mostly single, separated or divorced, with secondary and higher education and both economically active and as a student or pensioner. (Gómez Moya, J., 2003). This behavior, usually clandestine and carried out in solitude, has little support and understanding from the environment. The social and family rejection that the alcoholic woman suffers contributes to her feeling guilt and shame, which is why she once again seeks refuge in alcohol, thus feeding back the problem. In patriarchal societies inherited from the great monotheistic religions, the alcoholic woman feels the shame and guilt inherent to cultural values that reward sacrifice and self-sacrifice for the family, so that when the person begins to depend on alcohol , his own cultural imaginary collapses and he decides to live his illness secretly.

Globally, 71% of white women have drunk heavily at some point in their lives, while this percentage drops to 47% among African American and Hispanic women and 37% among Asian women. With these large figures, I have considered that this is a situation serious enough to pay attention to from an artistic point of view.

Within the emotional and psychological exploration that I was looking for to develop the theme and given the rejection that the issue implies at a social level, I preferred to be the model myself, since it was easier for me to work with my own body in the search for an identity borrowed for a while. My tolerance for alcohol is practically nil, so all the action takes place around a substance and its consequences from a perspective of emotional and psychological empathy, not physical.